While waiting for the results to be released,I was so panic.When I was asked to check for the results, I felt even more panic and my heart was beating non-stop.I never felt such a thing before.I encountered many failures in these two years.Failing to get a job..Failing to get the results I expected, even failing to get encouragement.
I believe I am not that bad in academic.But everything has changed since I moved to Kampar.I am not compliment/boasting/proud of myself for what I am.But,I feel so dark sometimes.Things never get right when I was here.I had thought to give up.I had thought to commit suicide.I said to myself why not I just jump off from the building or purposely create an accident for myself???Why should I suffer in this kind of complicated world???
Suddenly, I recalled back one of the article that reads " Happy or Sad is Your Choice.Noone destines your life to be dead or alive.You are the one who will choose to live happily or sad.Life is still carry on.Why don't to choose a happier life?"I could not think rationally during that time.When people face with failure again and again continuously they will think of negative things uh..a bit scary when I think back of it. >_<
But now, I feel happy that I have gone through a lot and still living.I think they will not understand what I had gone through before.I learned a lot from mistakes.I learned a lot from one of my lecturer who always encourage me not to give up easily.I also gained support from my dearest parents and my girlfriend.They never give up supporting me.They give me me hope and new life. It is like my second chance to live in here.I met lots of difficulties and hard times.I not dare to risk myself to take another wrong options.I made up my mind.Never feel regret for what decisions have made.There must be a reason why have to be like that.There must be a lesson for each decision made.Now,all my hard work pay off.I pass all the subjects. The next challenge will be aiming for a higher grade.I must bounce back.Must bounce greater to a next level.
I believe I am not that bad in academic.But everything has changed since I moved to Kampar.I am not compliment/boasting/proud of myself for what I am.But,I feel so dark sometimes.Things never get right when I was here.I had thought to give up.I had thought to commit suicide.I said to myself why not I just jump off from the building or purposely create an accident for myself???Why should I suffer in this kind of complicated world???
Suddenly, I recalled back one of the article that reads " Happy or Sad is Your Choice.Noone destines your life to be dead or alive.You are the one who will choose to live happily or sad.Life is still carry on.Why don't to choose a happier life?"I could not think rationally during that time.When people face with failure again and again continuously they will think of negative things uh..a bit scary when I think back of it. >_<
But now, I feel happy that I have gone through a lot and still living.I think they will not understand what I had gone through before.I learned a lot from mistakes.I learned a lot from one of my lecturer who always encourage me not to give up easily.I also gained support from my dearest parents and my girlfriend.They never give up supporting me.They give me me hope and new life. It is like my second chance to live in here.I met lots of difficulties and hard times.I not dare to risk myself to take another wrong options.I made up my mind.Never feel regret for what decisions have made.There must be a reason why have to be like that.There must be a lesson for each decision made.Now,all my hard work pay off.I pass all the subjects. The next challenge will be aiming for a higher grade.I must bounce back.Must bounce greater to a next level.
